Toumei Datta Sekai

Wondering what's that suppose to mean? "It Was A Transparent World". Got this song from my friend, Nisa. Those who love Naruto would know this. I've been hearing this song quite a while. Truly I don't know Japanese that fluent so I was wondering what was the story behind it. (I mean, it's good. I can feel the song right through.) Well, I got these from several websites (Self editing afterwards too):

What was it that I truly lost on that day?

I've  forgotten long ago.

In the twilight, the two of us,

little by little, 

become unnoticed,

What's more; we were unable to return home.

Somewhere is my seemingly

broken and fragile heart.

behind strong words, 

covered and hidden

It's covered and hidden.

Farewell, 

Although we couldn't be together,

I'll will carry on with this wounds.

Where you no longer exist;this world.

I will run,

passing through each day's pain.

I'll pass them through.

Broken fragments of glass,

the scent of grassy places,

the wounds of summer,

hey, where are you now?

Unnoticed, the once perfectly clear water,

had become a muddy one. 

when you noticed that,

I too have grown up.

The water's surface wobbled, 

diffusing my reflection.

A light still shining through, 

shining through.

Farewell, 

we waved hands that day

Right now, even you must have changed.

And yet, I’m still living

Overcoming my urge

to cry in the night.

What was it I REALLY lost on that day?

Farewell, 

Although we couldn't be together,

I will carry on with these wounds.

I’ll make the world run.

The future I once saw,

how should I surpass that?

Surpassing that..

Somehow, songs that I like despite being clueless of its meanings do ended up having meanings close to my heart. I'm glad... =)

Mid Sem Exam... Oh! Raya!!

Hye there! Hrrmm.. It has been a while, isn't it? Heh. I'm so packed with various programme. Fortunately I'm not that packed for the next few days. (Or is it becoming more packed?) Why? Exam week!! Huhu.. If I'm not mistaken I've been through college life for about 2 months by now. . It's about time Mid Semester Exam arrives. Hehe.

For those who are not aware, I'm studying at Centre For Foundation Studies, International Islamic University Malaysia. I'm taking English for International Communication Course. College life is pretty much like a marathon. Some days are just too much to handle, where you'll found yourself running errands till late of night. Some days, are way too relaxing that you actually feel weak-side effect of sleeping all day. =P

My exam slip ^.^

            It will not be long before exam starts. I'll have exams on 10 and 11 of August 2012. One is Basic Themes of Al-Quran (BTQ) and another will be Computer One. (By the way, I did badly in my Computer One  quizzes so I'm really worry) I just bought BTQ's book today (did not have budget before) and I am looking forward to studying with a proper book. Hehe. For the Computer subject, well, I don't intend to buy one. I'll make personal notes by borrowing my friend's. Let's hope my efforts bears its fruits later, okay? =)

Another thing to bear in mind.. I'll be having Mid Sem break for Raya!! The truth is that I can go home as soon as I finished my exams but.. IIUM ticket that I bought will be leaving on either 13 of August or 14 of August. I still haven't received any confirmation on that but either ways, Kemaman wait for me!! >.<

Congratulations!! ^.^

Hyep!! I just heard that UPU results for the STPM 2011 students has just come out. I dedicate this to all my seniors. CONGRATULATIONS!!! 

I really wish each and everyone of you a good luck. I have embarked my journey in Centre for Foundation Studies International Islamic University Malaysia. (CFS IIUM) and it seems that all of you are going to forge your own separate paths now. Though it might not seem so but I always remember all of you and prayed so that all of you in a great well being. I hope our ukhwah remains and not separated by boundaries of time and regions. 

All the best!! 

Dedicated to: Hafiz Adha, Ali Mars, Aizat Mazri, Azwan Azmi, Musafir Ilmu, Firdaus, Fakroul, Ryff Remy, Zulhilmi, Kak Radia, Kak Jaja, Kak Diba, Kak Asnida, Kak Farina, Kak Alyani, dan semua pelajar Tingkatan Enam SMK Sultan Ismail 2011!! >.<

MeOw~ =3

Hyep!!

How was your day? Hehehe.. See the title above? What do you think? ^.^

To those who doesn't know me personally, be informed that I am a true cat lover. >.<

I have been in love with them since forever! Haha. =P They, to me, is the cutest animal in the planet. Cats can make me become "Aww.. How cute!!".

For now, I have four cats that is dear to me. (I raised and loved more than that of course) One was Qittun (Arabic word that stands for kitten) and another was Putih (Malay translation for white). 

Qittun, is the cat that I once raised from a little kitten to adulthood. I was twelve when my father dumped him to a market. One day he just stopped eating. He is a really loyal and strong cat. I remember my sister, Basyirah  (who was just a baby back then) was saved from being bitten by a snake thanks to his brave act of killing it. I miss him..

 Putih, she is also a strong female cat. She was dumped last year (perhaps because she was already an old cat) to my housing area. I feed all straying cats that came to my door so I came to know her that way. The odd thing is, she never eats if someone else (like my father) tried to feed her. Fortunately she never refuse what I gave her for a meal. 

There are many males around and each tried to flirt with her. Guess what? She fought each and every one of them. I respected her for that. She was strong-that's what I thought of her.

will you go out with me? *.*

The sad part of the story is, I was away for a few days due to school activity. Since she never eat what my father gave her, he thought that she was helpless to be around. She was sent to a market, (T_T) with a thought that she can feed herself there (since food are plenty at markets). I was devastated. =(

Seeing me sad, my father felt obligated to bring new cats home for me. (It was nice of him although a certain cat can never just replace another- they creates new space to be loved) Then comes the third cat that is dear to me-Kiko!! ^.^

Currently he is the dominant cat in this area. Hoho. Back when he was little he was constantly being bullied. He grew up being a considerate cat. Why? Ahem ahem. He got himself a female (my father brought her home too. Her name is Stella-named by her former owner) Stella is under my Basyirah's care. You see, Kiko and Stella has babies of their own. Four of them!

Kiko and Kontot sleeping..

Kiko, as I told you, is a dominant cat around. Usually dominant cats are fierce-even to young kittens. They tend to treat other cats as their enemy. Kiko is no such cat. He sometimes played with his kittens, never fight with them over food, and always being so baby like around me. Hehe. He even sleeps with his kittens! What a loving cat father he is.. (Sob.. Sob..) See why I described him being a considerate cat  now? Hehe

Aww.... =3

His four kittens, is pretty much alike in colours. The eldest is Koko, followed by Chiko a.k.a. Kontot, then comes the third, Manja a.k.a. Stokin, than comes Leper the youngest of them! (The females are ones who has the "a..k.a."s)

Kontot and Leper..

I got attached to Leper the most. Why? Back when he was a baby my sister accidently stepped on him. His ribs was flatten a bit. (That's why he was named Leper, meaning, flat) He was very weak. I fear of him dying everyday. Now, he is the fattest among them. ^.^ Oh! Leper, he fills the last spot of my four dear cats. Hehe.

Leper!! =3

I willl be going to CFS IIUM (Centre of Foundation Studies, International Islam University Malaysia) on 3rd of June. Even now, when I looked at them I was like "Can I perhaps kidnap you to CFS?". I wonder what they will be like when I return 4 months later. Huhu.. I really gonna miss them. So much! May all things went out well for both them and myself. 

 That's all for now.. (It's longer than I expected..) Thanks you for reading this. Assamualaikum..

Once Upon An Anime.. XD

I have posted before that i'm an anime fan. I've lived 18 years by now, and none has taken Gundam Seed as my top anime in my heart. I've got to say that it's a coincidence that I even know about Gundam Seed. It's kinda funny to me.

It was Sunday morning and I was just 10 back then (In other words, we were kids). My siblings and I were watching Spongebob when suddenly my brother wanted to check out other channels. (Spongebob was on TV3). I wanted to watch Spongebob! We had a small fight and he won.. -_-". Huhuk..

He switched to TV2 and (TA-DA!!) Gundam Seed was on. It was the final 5 minutes of the anime but I was love strucked. I can't really explain but I just have this feeling of "I need to see this". My brother got bored in less than a minute and left. Haha.

*One week later

Khair: I wan't to watch Gundam!!! >.<
Brother: You wanted Spongebob last week! Let's watch that! =@
Khair: NO!! (Taking control of the remote)

*Switching channel*

Khair: ^.^
Brother: @#$% ~~~

Gundam Seed Final (Season One)

That was the Grand Begining of me becoming a Gundam Seed fan. Haha. =P Seriously though. I've watched other Gundam as well-Gundam 00, Gundam Zero, etc.- but none has the complication and relations between characters of both sides (that were on war against each other) like Gundam Seed does.

I love quality anime that have broad themes discussed in the story line and well shown by its characters. The story line itself sometimes are overwhelming. Do it right, and the message sticks to the fans heart. I think anime really is just another way to convey ideas to the public. I saw that many anime fans are able to express theories and ideas in animes, and propose ways to actually made it into something real.

Sometimes the arguments that pass along due to different understandings of the story itself really wowed me. Some animes carry heavy meaning and ideas that is put into a way that many can understand with the story line and the roles of each characters. It makes anime much more interesting to explore when I looked it that way. Hehe.

Lelouch Grand Ending. It's really sad..

Of course, Gundam Seed is not the only anime that I love. Others include Code Geass:Lelouch of the Rebellion, Detective Conan, Naruto, etc. (If I list them all, its going to take forever. Hehe.)

Gundam Seed Final Plus (Season Two-really ended. Huhuk)

I think that's it for now. I've had this serious headache which I can't really explain why. When things turn out this way I just keep using my brain more-to make the pain goes away. It didn't affect my studies much. Just a little slow in absorbing what's necessary. Urgh.. It's not really serious like I'm in ICU or anything. It's just disturbing (I've got much to learn!). Heh. I hope it goes away fast. Anyways I wish all of you best of your days on. Assalamualaikum. =)

Teacher's Day

Yes, yes. I know. It's super belated. Still, this year's Teacher's Day is one that I felt I need to write about. (Don't ask why. It just happen to be that way >.< )

SMK Sultan Ismail is where I've spent most of my time these past five years. I almost forgot about this special day due to some things I need to take care of. (Forgive me!! Huhuk.) By the way, I was very fortunate having a friend to remind me about that. I was so fueled with enthusiasm that I arrived at school before the ceremony even started. Talk about spirit. (-_-") Hahaha

Chan chan chan! (Drumroll..)

I looked to my right and there they were, with sparkling backgrounds that blinds the eyes watching, marching proudly to the Assembly Plateau. Haha. Nah. There wasn't any music at all. It was quite a bland march in my opinion. The Principal (of course) is the one leading the march. Then, formalities took place-Negaraku Song, delegations and speeches. Then all students were to be at the Grand Hall (Dewan Besar as we know it.) and briefing about the Teacher's Day is given to them. 

Aisyah.. Hehe

I wasn't too nice to just stick around during that phase. I went to get my friend, Aisyah.(She schooled here during PMR and further her studies in MRSM) Then we met Husni under the legendary tree. I nicknamed it that way cause it has contributed a lot to the school. It commonly known as "Pokok Besar" to the Ismailians.

(Oh. Dewan Besar, Pokok Besar. Ismailians really love things big I guess. Haha) We chit chat quite a while cause Husni and Aisyah has not met each other for ages. Hehe. 

Aisyah got work to do so she left early. The teachers were playing some sports at the school field. That's when I teamed up with my seniors to kill the time. (Also because I miss them. They are like brothers and sisters to me. Hehe.) They shared money to buy a cake for the Form Six teachers and we actually had quite a hurry.

It was quite hilarious at first. But I really enjoyed my time with them. They don't excluded me just for being the only ex-form five among them. I cherish them for that. The teachers were so sporting and childlike with us that it made it clear just how close they are with each other. One part I was happy, another was kind of jealous. Hehe. =P

After we spent some time in the teacher's lounge (eating cakes and taking pictures), we joined the rest of the school at Dewan Besar. When we arrived, the Master of Ceremony (MC) were announcing the next activity- Berbalas Pantun (I don't know how to translate that in English. Huhu..).

It caught my attention as soon as I knew that the teachers who joined made up a very interesting team- The Principal himself, Co- Senior Assistant Cikgu Abdul Rahman Tahar and Ustaz Saleem. It's them versus the students. Though it would be more appropriate if the activity was done with the proper prop-tables and chairs I mean. They were standing through out the activity. 

Next activity was a song presented by a male student. Small. I'm guessing he's only a Form One. I was, "Yeah, Singing. Sure." But.. When this boy pull out his trump card, I need to say less. *Fangirl scream* Hahaha.

He is not just a singer. He is a great singer. Everyone-students, teachers, in fact, ourselves- were overwhelmed. Such small person with astonishing talent. (He's cute for that. ^.^) He was highly demanded that he was called upon to give a second song. Hahaha. He was up to something else for a third one though. 

"Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to Cikgu Zainuddin, Happy Birthday to you" (Cikgu Zainuddin was pulled to the stage, cake was brought out.  He was so surprised that it shows without talking. Hahaha.) Yup. Teacher's birthday on Teacher's Day? It was heart warming to see such momento. Hehehhe..

Okay. That was all about the interesting part I guess. After that was just prize giving ceremony and so. I sit and had a simple talk with my seniors, and when it's all over, we head home.

Overall the reception was simple, but the time I had was priceless. I mean, I may never get the chance to be with my seniors (all of them like this) and my teachers again in near future. Truly speaking I hate to part. With anyone. (Wait, I think all of us don't really enjoy parting with ones we care, right?) Hehe.

One way or another, it is part of life. I'll just have to make sure next time we meet, I became better than who I am today. Let's work hard together, shall we? ^.^

EMO YET HAPPY!! =)

"Things are going to be all right."

This is among my charm words when I'm quite down over petty things. I really try not to be govern by my emotions-I'll hurt someone, especially myself. Thus I try to control them the best I can (with a few slips =P). When comes the time when I can't, I'd rather be alone. (Cause I'll blurt out some stupid things that none can understand.. =( I've been experimenting that years to know that by now. =P )

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It's always better to forget about petty things. I'd rather be happy over teeny weeny bless, than frowning over itsy bitsy  problem (sometimes it's so little that it's not fit to be called a problem at all!)  I mean, if we're so down about little unimportant things, how can we enjoy things that actually important to us? Women are heavily emotional. Easily disturbed. That fact actually scares me. Hrrmm..

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How's my emo writing? Hahaha.. Trying out something new today. Yeay! =P

Speaking about something new (or literally-writing about it), I've had a joyous momento today. Hihik. >.<
It's been ages since I last cooking with Umi. Guess what? I did that today! Hehe. We've cooked Nasi Minyak and Ayam Masak Merah to go along with it. It turned out to be delicious. (Or is it because I'm happy? Hrmm.. =P ) 

It looked a lot like this one! XD

Nyam! Nyam! =)

Watashi wa hontōni shiawasedesu!!

Oh! It reminds me! I've promised someone that's yearning to taste my cooking. A very OLD friend of mine. Hahahha.. I'm not sure when am I going to fill that promise though. Well, if I did, I'm not very sure whether it'll turn out okay. Let's pray that my friend wouldn't fell sick or anything shall we? Hehehe.. (Evil laugh)

HYE THERE!! =)

           Hyep!! I am green to the blogging world-no idea why I started to do this. Haha. By the way, this is actually my side blog-or should I say, the 'informal' one- the one which I intended to write about myself that is. (My primary blog is in full Malay, and I want to make it useful-not just a mere something to fill someone's free time) For all of you who are reading, be prepared as I am about to tell a little something about myself to you. Hehehe..(evil laugh =P)
            

            As you could see in the right column here, I am former student of SMK Sultan Ismail, Kemaman (Some how the word 'former' gets to me.. Huhu..). I was born in Terengganu, raised in Terengganu, and still living in Terengganu. One teeny-weeny thing about me that isn't very Terengganu is my slang-I have a pure Malay slang (like others would refer to as "cakap luar") but hey, I still has a pinch of Terengganu slang- I think.

              Let's see... What else.. Oh! I am a fan of anime. I like how complicated the plot of the series are to make, and to explore how the anime makers gather so much information and facts to customize an anime  to being an original, quality and informative for the viewers. I like graphical things rather than the actual thing. In fact if I watch TV, mostly it is a cartoon or anime series (So much for being an 18,eh?). In fact when I think about it, I grew up with these. It's just that I didn't see them for just a platform for entertainment-they have so much more. Hehe..

             Even though my best friend.. Wait. That's not it. Even though ALL of my friends are fans of K-Pop and their casting idols, I didn't seemed to bother (To all K-Pop fans reading this, heed this well-I am not against you. :) ) I guess everyone has their own favorite. Speaking about favorite, I love chocolate and french fries. Comfort food I'd say. Even so, I think I'm developing interest in tiramisu as we speak. 

Sayang, Atiqah and Che.

              I can cook, but I'm not sure I'm a good cook. I can draw, but again, I don't think I'm a good artist. (Talking about self-confidence. =P) How should I put this. I am a dare devil who likes to try everything in her way as long as it's not illegal or prohibited in Islam. I do a little of this and that, but not a master in any of those. I'm still searching for the "me" inside, and Alhamdulillah, I think I have been bestowed a certain good friend to help me with that.

              My best friend since primary school is no other than Atiqah. Oh. And you can visit her blog here: http://atique159.blogspot.com/ . She is way past me in this blogging thing. (You can tell she is a fan of K-Pop by visiting hers) There's another two gang of the group-Che and Sayang (Yes.Her real name is Sayang, written in her I/C as Sayang Noorika. Unique, doesn't she? Already have a special someone. Hoho). We are a group of 4. Which most of the time is actually seen as a group of three-cause I don't really get along well with this gang concept. I make friends really well, but I don't seem to figure out how to stay close to them without hurting them. Guess that's one of my issue there. =P

It's not as bad as it seems. =P

              I am here to improve myself. I'm someone who's hard to share and I want to change that. I figured that if I want to start sharing, perhaps blogging is a good way to start. There are more to come and I hope to be a better, stronger person plus a  much more dependable leader. I wish everyone will know that no matter what comes in our way, we are never once alone. Acknowledge this in you-Allah is here by my side, and will always be. Have a nice day! 

Assalamualaikum. =)